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"Surrender"
Standing quietly like a good little girl should. Emotionless, as his fingers arrive at his point of pleasure down my body and into forbidden places. My shoe is untied. I can tie it myself now. But somehow I know, it will have to wait.
Grandma turns out the bedroom light, as my heart beats faster. Little girls don't like the dark, but I am not alone. I feel the weight of his hand on my body searching for me in the dark. I shouldn't be afraid. He will take care of me. He is older and strong. He wouldn't let anything happen. I am safe from the monsters, as he lifts up my nightgown. --Melanie V.
"The Voice Inside"
Somewhere inside me, trying to fight me, the voice is growing more dim. Speaking the word, wanting to be heard, the voice is growing more dim. The noise gets louder, surrendering power, the voice is growing more dim. I ask, can you hear it? It's lost now ; I fear it. The voice is growing more dim. --Melanie V.
"Once When I Was Normal"
Once when I was normal I had a name and a face just like everyone else. Once when I was normal words like bright, talented and advanced were used to describe me. Once when I was normal I could stand in a group of people, in any place and feel competent and equal. Once when I was normal my head was filled with creative ideas, goals and dreams of a successful future. Once when I was normal my thoughts, mind and body worked together as one. Once when I was normal the strongest pill that I ingested was a vitamin or an aspirin. Once when I was normal I wanted people to notice me not to try and hide. Once when I was normal I only went to the doctor when I was physically ill. Once when I was normal boys liked me and I liked boys. Once when I was normal I was classified by my ability, charm and values not by my symptoms, behaviors and triggers. Once when I was normal I could dream of tomorrow and think very little of yesterday. Once when I was normal there was a tomorrow to look forward to. --Melanie V.
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